For my future daughter

If you knew how you scared us.

If you knew how I am:

Having this feeling inside me,

Once again. 

If you knew how tortured,

Your father and I were.

I wish I could have told you,

My baby girl.

I'm sorry, I did this.

I should have warned you.

But now it is too late 

For remorse.

I'll help you sweet child.

You'll be fine.

I'll tell you everything

We'll be fine!

I'm sorry, I did this!

You don't deserve it!

It's a curse,

I'll tell you how it is.

I'm sorry, I did this

I should have warned you.

But now it is too late

For remorse.

If you knew that you scared us!

If you knew how I am!

This feeling inside,

Once again.

This feeling inside,

Once again.

Made the 8/01/2018.
At that moment, I wanted to write a letter as the point the view of my mother but at the same time as a mother too. When I was almost assaulted, that fateful day,  I saw how this destroyed my parents were. They didn't understand and I get it: I escaped and hurt my assaulter, but I was scarred forever, I no longer was the same. And like most people in my situation, I felt guilty for a long time and I was sure that if I couldn't move on from this, I would be curse with this trauma forever.